Here Comes the Sun…
Spring is my favorite season of the year. After a cold and dank winter, it is wonderful to see the land and creatures blossoming once again under the golden warmth of sunshine. Mind you, spring can be a fickle season. The warm sunlight of today can easily turn into blustery winds chilling the unwary T-shirt wearer to his very bones. But if you are like me, I am sure you take pleasure in the warmth of springtime today, who can tell what tomorrow will bring?
The Dark Days
Harvey had been struggling with daily fevers for several weeks now. We are not talking about the 100.5F fevers for which neutropenic CLL patients are told to go to the hospital. We are talking about mind-bending fevers that reached as high as 104.5 to 105F at their peak. Everyday, the morning would start out mild. No fever, no chills, no problems. By midday, the picture would begin to change. The fever would increase gradually, totally resistant to maximum safe doses of Tylenol and Advil. By mid afternoon it would hit its peak. On some days the fever would break by late evening. On other days it would continue into the night, making it impossible for Harvey or me to get any sleep. Often the fever would be accompanied by bone rattling chills / shivering, followed by drenching sweats that required change of pyjamas and sheets. I have never done so much laundry in my life.
The docs looked for any pathogens that could be causing the fevers. They looked for the common ones, they looked for the uncommon ones, they looked for the downright bizarre tropical ones ones because Harvey had spent a significant chunk of his life in Malaysia and India. With the sole exceptions of HHV6 (reported on earlier) that was soon resolved and a stubborn CMV infection (more on that nasty critter below), they could find no infections in Harvey. Samples from the Hickman port Harvey was fitted with were tested again and again. Nothing. Nada. In desperation, just in case the port was harboring some pathogen that was refusing to come out into the samples collected and tested, the decision was made to pull the Hickman port. I was sorry to see it go, it was working so beautifully and made all the intravenous infusions so much easier for Harvey.
The hope was that if the port was the guilty party, removing it would solve the problem. No such luck. Two days after they yanked out the Hickman, Harvey put on his best fever performance yet, hitting his career high note of 105F. I would be lying if I said I was as cool then as I am now, writing about it after the fact. Fortunately for Harvey and me, an old school friend of ours was visiting and so we had some one to freak out with us. Misery loves company. Oh yes, they did try to culture the removed port itself, to see if any bugs could be encouraged to grow. Once again, the results were a resounding zero.
One of the experts in charge of the protocol decided to do a little experiment. Harvey was given an intravenous dose of 60mg of prednisone, along with the rest of his antibiotic and antiviral medications. Something amazing happened. For the first time in weeks, Harvey had no fever that day. He stayed cool as a cucumber for the whole day, he felt like himself again. We went for a walk, had a relaxed lunch, watched TV, felt human again.
After much back and forth, it finally became clear to me (and most of the attending physicians) that the only agent that controlled Harvey’s fevers was prednisone, carefully calibrated down to 40mg/day. There was some concern about doing this for any length of time, since Harvey still had that pesky CMV infection and it is not safe to prescribe immune suppressive steroidal drugs to patients with live infections. But frankly we were running out of options and I could not see how my friend was going to be able to tolerate these massive fevers any longer.
One Less Thing to Worry About
The CMV infection was the big roadblock in giving Harvey the prednisone dose he needed to control the fevers. Yesterday, for the first time, we saw the CMV viral counts go down. They had been hanging tough at the 2K - 2.7K range ever since CMV was diagnosed several weeks ago. Yesterday the counts went down to 0.2K. Anything less than 0.1K is considered inconsequential. Harvey will stay on intravenous gancyclovir for a week longer, followed by several more weeks of oral version of the same drug (valagancyclovir), just to make sure the CMV is destroyed completely. The fact that the antiviral therapy is proving effective and the viral counts have come down sharply demonstrated that the 40mg prednisone he had been getting for the past 4 days has not gummed up the works.
A Mystery For The Experts
I keep telling Harvey it is OK to be a somewhat boring person at times like this, but he just does not seem to get it. He has become an interesting puzzle for the doctors, as they try to explain what is causing his high fevers. One by one, all the known pathogens have been ruled out, as well as the poor blameless Hickman port. As Sherlock Holmes would say, once you have ruled out all the probable causes, what remains must be the cause, however unlikely it may sound. Among the less likely culprits are (1) drug induced hyper immune reaction (and Harvey has been on drugs enough to sink several good sized boats) (2) Something called an “engraftment syndrome” where the newly minted donor neutrophils go on a rampage, tricking the body into thinking there is an infection of some sort and therefore jacking up the body temperature (3) good old fashioned GVHD. The jury is still out and we do not yet have a consensus on what may have triggered the high temperatures. The fact that Harvey also had a transient but pretty impressive rash on his arms and legs at one point may be a clue.
My money is on some weird and unconventional presentation of GVHD. I have one totally unrelated bit of information for making this bet. Harvey had these “shoddy nodes” along the side of his neck, sort of pebbly nodes I could feel with my fingers, even after going through all the preconditioning and the transplant itself. Over the last couple of weeks these and every other node we could feel all over his body have disappeared. Is this the much longed for graft-versus-leukemia (GVL) effect, clearing his body of the last traces of CLL? If he is experiencing GVL, were the fevers the other side of the coin, the evil twin GVHD? The experts are not convinced. But that is my story and I am sticking to it - for now.
When it rains it pours
Let’s see: we got a handle on how to control Harvey’s fevers with prednisone, CMV viral loads decreased dramatically, Harvey seems to have shaken off the last remaining traces of any unnaturally enlarged lymph nodes - pretty good news you say? Well, you have not heard the last bit yet. Today was got the latest results of molecular studies to check on the status of the two cord blood units Harvey received back on March 26th. As of today, Seattle Slim is 100% in charge and Harvey is fully chimeric and engrafted. There is no trace of the second cord blood unit, or Harvey’s own prior cancerous immune system. Slim is getting pretty good at making red blood cells, platelets and neutrophils (the last need a little coaxing once in a while with a Neupogen shot because of all the immune suppressive drugs Harvey is getting), which means Harvey needs very few transfusions.
Don’t let me get too euphoric. There are still bridges to cross. The experts are still scratching their heads on what caused the fevers in the first place and what would happen if we discontinue the prednisone. Would the fevers return with a vengeance, or would we have succeeded in changing the pattern once and for all? Is the shoe yet to drop on the subject of GVHD? How long will it take Harvey to recover his lost weight and strength? It breaks my heart to see him so scrawny, barely able to keep up with me when we go on our very short walks. But his spirit is doing well, especially since he won his bet with me - contrary to predictions, he managed to keep most of the hair on his head (what there was of it to begin with) as well as his beloved goatee.
It has been a turbulent and oftentimes very scary couple of weeks. Today, I can feel the spring sunshine in my bones, I am holding on to my sense that Harvey has turned the corner and we will soon be heading back home to our beloved Sedona. I can’t wait to get our dog back, our life back. Thanks for keeping the vigil with us, it means a great deal to Harvey and me.
Be well,
Chaya
37 comments on "Springtime!"
Follow-up comment rss or Leave a TrackbackGlad to hear spring has sprung! You both remain such an inspiration of strength. We will be praying that soon you will have your life back! Thank you for sharing your journey.
I have been holding my breath for so long that is great to be able to breathe again. What a wonderful new day.
Hang in there .. you both are going to do just fine …….
Glad to hear the weather is finally making a break for the better - the annual regeneration of springtime can really renew one’s sense of resiliency. With any luck, you’ll be back in the familiar climes of Arizona before the unofficial Minnesota state bird (the mosquito) returns to roost!
Ahh…the intact goatee, a sign as good as spring, speaks to a man of determined mind, body and tenacity!!!!
“And the Spring arose on the garden fair,
Like the Spirit of Love felt everywhere;
And each flower and herb on Earth’s dark breast
Rose from the dreams of its wintry rest.”
Shelley
Thank you for your recipe for Raita - and so much more.
Chaya-
I am so sorry that you and Harvey have had such a scary time of it recently. I am sure that sleep comes easier now and hope you have been able to get a couple of full night slumbers. Thank you for letting us share in your journey.
“Vision is not enough, it must be combined with venture. It is not enough to stare up the steps, we must step up the stairs.” Vaclav Havel
Good news overall!!
“Be patient towards all that is unsolved in your heart and dreams, try to love the questions themselves.”
Rainer M. Rilke
Fever theory: Domestic conflict between the male and female cords. Now that the male cord has dominated the physical domain and the female cord has taken to the spiritual domain peace shall reign and the fevers will end.
Finally, some good news! We were getting really scared for you (and for us in the future as well)—we think Harvey has turned the corner to the cure, spring has sprung; all is not quite yet right with the world, but it’s getting there. Keep thinking positive thoughts—we are; there’s really no other choice for all of us touched by CLL, and those good thoughts are traveling your way right now.
Keep sending updates as often as you can—-we check every day; worry when we don’t see anything new for awhile.
Best wishes,
John & Marilyn
I have a big smile on my face as I read this. May spring continue with blossoms a plenty as Harvey keeps those fevers down. I like your theories about the fevers, but Wayne’s theory makes sense as well. I know you cannot wait to look out your windows in Sedona & see those beautiful red rocks. Continue to keep us informed. We check this out every day.
Great news!!! You can do it Harvey!!!
Wonderful news! Thank you for sharing this journey.
For your generousity of spirit, your strength.
All the best hopes for continued recovery.
Way to go, Harvey & Serenissima the Most Serene!!!
“i thank You God for most this amazing
day:for the leaping greenly spirits of trees
and a blue true dream of sky;and for everything
which is natural which is infinite which is yes
(i who have died am alive again today,
and this is the sun’s birthday;this is the birth
day of life and love and wings:and of the gay
great happening illimitably earth)
how should tasting touching hearing seeing
breathing any-lifted from the no
of all nothing-human merely being
doubt unimaginable You?
(now the ears of my ears awake and
now the eyes of my eyes are opened” — e e cummings
Amen to what Aaron, Gary and e.e. cummings. I just exhaled that long breath I have been holding for you. Here in Minnesota, the birds are singing, the red buds are blooming, the rabbits have eaten all the tulips, and the sky is blue blue blue.
Whew….and, mainly and hugely, HOOOORAAAYY!!!!
Yippy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Oh, Chaya: I know it’s been a rough road, I know there might be more ahead, but you are so brave. So amazing. Both of you, Beth and John
Thank you both for shareing this terrible time with us,I look for news most days and worry for you both when we hear nought. WE all look to you both for information strength and hope. I too carry a bacterial infection called chronic Q fever and it worries the hell out of me if my time for a transplant comes. It is great to hear that things are starting to look up and this gives me more confidence in reguards to my future treatment.All the best and look forward to hearing many more happy updates
reguards John
Dear Chaya and Harvey, blessings on both of you. As the trees and flowers bloom, i wish that for both of you. You have the strength and courage of giants! I am so sorry for your heartaches and pain and glad for every piece of good good news during your amazing journey and I wish for you to be soon safe at home with your dog once again. All the best to you, Carol
I am very glad to hear the good news. I hope there is much more in your immediate future.
Hang in there!
Hal Lepoff
Your good news makes the springtime even more radiant!
We hope for some much deserved rest and relief for both of you!
Indeed good news - after a very difficult period of time. Summer is just around the corner.
Wonderful news! One by one, Harvey has overcome the tough hurdles. and, as you noted, he is fully engrafted and there are no traces of the old immune system. What a huge relief and weight off both your shoulders that has got to be. Harvey is a true warrior.
I hope you are both back home soon, and that Harvey will be enjoying enduring good health.
Chaya, What a wonderful and dedicated caregiver you are to Harvey and all of us! Your instincts are so good. Since the transplant with cord blood is so new, I am betting on your theories re. G vs. L and G vs. H. Slim and Harvey will come out on top of this and we all will benefit from his experience and your knowledge. I just wish it could have been less taxing on you both. I think of you both daily.
Chris Randolph
Chaya - thanks for keeping your sanity enough to keep us all informed thruout this ordeal. A lot of us owe you and PC big-time for all your past efforts to get the truth out there. So we are all praying hard for Harvey’s complete recovery and some eventual peace and quiet for you both.
Dear Chaya,
Vince and I have been reading faithfully and crossing our fingers that you two would get through these fevers and emerge into spring and safety. Sounds like you’re on the road. One thing that occurred to me when you first started posting about the fevers: As a college student I had a bout of what was later determined to be mono, but the diagnosis took quite a long time. Beforehand, however, I would get nightly fevers that progressed from 101 degrees to 103 degrees and finally, at the UC hospital, up to 105 and 106. (I remember being packed in ice and asked by doctors if I’d been out of the country or near a ship in the Long Beach harbor where typhus had broken out. They had no clue it was mono.) After a couple of weeks of this, mono finally showed up in a blood test (although it hadn’t before), and I was put on heavy duty steroids and felt almost completely better within a day or two. (Still had to drop out of school for a quarter-this was back in 1970.) I tell you this because I wonder if it might have something to do with PCs shakes and bakes, given the relationship between EBV and T-cells. Take care and enjoy the sunshine!
Oh, we think you can let yourself get just a little bit euphoric! Harvey has passed a big hurdle with the engraftment, the fevers are under control, and the CMV is well on its way out. Plus Harvey got to keep his hair, and there’s nothing so stressful right now that would cause you to tear yours out!
Wow what a road you two have traveled together. So glad it has finally straightened out now! Hate those crooked ones where you never know what is around the next bend.
You are in my prayers —
Darlene Dorsey
Fantastic news, after a tough fight. We will keep you both in our prayers.
Dear Chris C
EBV is indeed risk factor after a transplant. It is one of the viruses they test for here, each week. Fortunately, we now have much more sensitive pcr (polymerase chain reaction) testing methodology available and they can detect minute traces of the virus DNA in blood.
EBV reactivation after transplant can cause something called PTLD (post transplant lymphoproliferative disease). It is manifested by rapid enlargement of lymph nodes, filled to the rafters with EBV infected B-cells. Until recently PTLD carried very high mortality risk. Left untreated PTLD often transformed into frank malignant lymphoma - dangerous stuff.
The therapy options are much improved for PTLD patients today. THE drug of choice is our old friend Rituxan, the master killer of B-cells. It is now the standard of care for transplant patients presenting with even the slightest hint of EBV reactivation.
As many of you may recall, Harvey had developed hypersensitivity to Rituxan and may not use it ever again. Several months ago I worried about this possible scenario, that Harvey may develop PTLD after transplant and we would have no way of treating him.
I contacted Genmab, the company that has been kind enough to grant him compassionate use access to Humax-CD20 a couple of years ago, to see if they would let him have Humax-CD20 for this instance as well. Once more, Genmab stepped up to the plate. We managed to get all the paper work done (FDA approvals, IRB (internal review board) approvals of Fairview hospital, legal agreements between the company and the doctor taking responsibility for treating Harvey - you won’t believe the amount of paper work). Sufficient Humax-CD20 is now safely stashed away here waiting for when and if Harvey ever needs it. So far his EBV viral titers have stayed below the detection limit and I hope they stay that way for ever!
Chaya,
Great news. One thing they teach in medical school is that fever does not equal infection. I bet you are right in thinking this is an inflammatory process, especially with the dramatic response to steroids.
Victor Frankel wrote “Tragedy is suffering without meaning” I wish that Harvey did not have to suffer so, and the value of your journal in no way compensates for that, but I and others have gained so much meaning from what you have chosen to share. Thank you again.
I had my BMB, ABGs and PFTs today in prep for my transplant in a month. BMB results in 3 days. CT scan next week.
Be well. Stay strong
Brian Bkoffman.blogspot.com
Chaya: I am thrilled to see that Harvey’s fever has subsided. I wish you and PC the best.
I check this journal every day and continue to send healing energy your way. I hope that warm spring sun is still shining on you and Harvey - and that he has continued to progress this past week. Be well.
Chaya, Thanks so much for keeping us all updated. You and PC are in my prayers.
Chaya, Many of us know how you feel about the fresh breath of Spring. What an experience you two have been having. May your continuing days there be short and Sedona, the dog, less laundry, and weight gain for PC be just around the corner. Sending all good thoughts your way. Ann
I raise my glass to Seattle Slim. You and PC are in my prayers.
Namaste.